Friday, August 29, 2008

I'm picking up where I left off in May...

when I closed Bonni Bakes bakery/cafe and set off for Lund, Sweden (a bike to everywhere city) and Rome. It was a wonderful time shared with family & friends surrounded by ancient cultures, multiple languages, confusing foreign exchange rates and lots of great looking food. I was also on a personal mission to change the direction of my life and define my future path. Seemed like a good plan. In reality those two weeks became an opportunity to unwind, recharge, laugh, hug and cry (especially on the 5th anniversary of my husband Rea's death). I kept looking for inspiration, Divine or otherwise, but all I found was gelato...and more gelato. Not that there's anything wrong with gelato!

In the past I've changed careers when I wasn't happy with what I was doing and felt pulled toward something new that intrigued me. This time it was different. I loved what I was doing but work was taking up way too much time, limiting any personal life. I wasn't running from; I wasn't being pulled toward; I was feeling frustrated, confused and immobilized. Years ago, feeling bogged down in this same situation, Rea threw me a lifeline when he asked, "what do you love to do?" The answer came spilling out without a thought, "baking, cooking, playing with food". As a result I wound up reinventing myself as a baker. Today my answer is still the same, so maybe I'm just missing what's right in front of my eyes. Maybe the issue isn't what to do but rather how to do it. It'll be all about food, fun and sharing. Details to follow.